sorry havent been blogging.
many things happened.
im tired.
i really am.
i am locking this.


wednesdayy
27th april.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAIXUN!
x))

and thanks to the pple who gave me presents. kae. appreciated!


thursdayy
an okay day actually.
but i was bothered.


fridayy
syf.
went for one period of lesson.
english! woots.watched some films?
mmm. i wanted to watch finish the toy car thing!
arghhh.
nevermind.

syf's okay.
they did their best.
they tried not to make mistakes.
they wanted to be perfect.
they aimed for the best.
they were worried, they wished and hoped for the best.
after doing maybe-the-best.

i dont know, im not them.
but thats what i think.
they are wayy better than those schools i've watched.
most, lah.

scgs was woah.
they nod their heads, rock bodies, swayy in almost sync movement man.
but the songs....okayyyy lah. NICE. very cheena.
so chinese! so loyal.
yet the melody repeats over and over again for the 2nd song, i was bored hell.
first song, after the first part, the middle was boring, then the last bit...mmm. impressive lah.
x) woohoo to them!

want to watch mgs and plmgs!
BUT DINT GET TO!
i went to get and put mallets instead!
oh gee.

anywayy.
results werent ideal.
its probably cos of the expression and maybe the judges.
oh hahaha. yes yes. blame the judges! let us all do that. xP
but!
the song was great, seriously.
considering you guys are performing under stress in front of judges and audience, and being graded, all at once...
it really wasnt bad.
scratch that. it was good. =D
hahaha.

sensed the disappointments
especially when results jus came out.
ziling and i gripping hands. and many others too. i din take note.
once it was said, hands let go and eyes down.
went out and when yanyi and yulin started to encourage us to applaude for our selves.
=(( ohmann...
clapping was pathetic.
but our cheering not bad eh!
hahahaha.
dear oh ex-but-maybe-still-senior yulin.!
how encouragging. =))
i watched ziling dolly aruna leona yuanli lynette and so on.
wasnt able to think of happy things like rainbows.
but hey. i really really think they deserve gold!
dont know about stupid honours. raah. wads with that anyway.
but yeah, gold.
ahh. maintain silver better than dropping standard...right?

okayokay.
im done. almost.
shouldnt even be talking about it man.
im not even in the syf groupp. i wouldnt know what they feel.
so no one flames me okay. i dont care.
you flame, i curse.
dont be a bother, mann!
but this is wad I feel.
dont like it, scram.

gee.
anyway, back to as2 right.
wasnt that bad la.
the journey back was so...silent.
NO ONE WAS CONVERSING!
only me jiahui n priscilla. eating n commenting.
but then i slept afterwards n duno wad happened.
syf pple came back with red eyes. rabbits. sigh.
thennn. went yanyi's house!
before that went back class.
dao-ed mrs.chew.
feel bad. BUT HURR. ohwell la
daoed lots pple n refused to tell them!
haha act mysterious lah.
im NOT ashamed of the results.
definitely not.
okayokay?

thenn wat ruined my day was these buncha band girls.
woah SCREW THEM LAH!
idiots. effing shit.
urgh!
they passed us and were like cheering hooting clapping wooting and almost happy to tears man!
grabbed n hugged.
words like these spilled, "i heard handbell got silver oso! now we got partner for silver! woah heng. i thought maybe if you guys get gold then DIE LE! lucky you get silver ah! wahh. so heng ar!! we can be malu together!"
LIKE WHAT THE HELL LAH!
go hell.
i dont feel like cursing today.
but im definitely pissed about that.
annoyance! grr.
do that again, i swear i will screw your lives up, personally. make sure you regret.
mygosh.

anyway. i refuse to get even more disturbed!
hahahaa. at yanyis house ar...
bit boring.
maybe cos im sleepy n i dont like mahjong.
but now suddenly like to watch mahjong leh!
hahaha. mean girls...cant hear the words carefully n the scenes jumpp so much!
whoops.
nevermind la.
thanks, yannyi. x))

mmm. ends here-
chilleh, syf pple.
did well. did great.
to us, at least.
the us refers to the rest of the handbell members.
*smiles_.



p.s. btw, thanks to those wishes on the tagboard. hav a nice day, n yeah well. thankyouuu.!
p.p.s yeahandd! i got attached, againn! x)) my siewbee. woots ! yeahmann-

happy birthdayyy.
___*charlotte!
x))

haa. sweet sweet people.
lovely presents wishes n cards.
haa. my annual thankyouu list!

*kisses__
[presents. !!]
`da jie - who gave me the first present this year, my big PINK watch! cute.
`mama - dangly circly earrings.
`er jie - happy house pouch. pinkk redd n such. haha cute!
`crystal - dearr youngest sisterr! and her cute colourful cardd! woots.
`nicholyn - nice long letter, and withh dolphin earrings!
`yuling - bigg big australian cupp and australian cardd! and certain neo. cute mushy words. *blush*
`chloe and karmun - bouquet of silver aluminium roses with aluminium-wrapped chocolate in the middle!!
`youying and beverly - aah. beautifullywrapped, with green garde feather. jam jarr with more green feathers, lots glitter, cute colourful mesh, letter and my pink n silver starr earrings!!
`handbellas (sec3s, plus one sec4) [yanyi yingting aruna dolly zhiying elina priscillia joanna jiahui ziling diana] - yellow and black bumblebee stockings/socks with candies! my christmas/syf stockings!! haaa. DARN cute. and a DAMNEST cute card with almost-hairless charlotte in stockings n handbell costume!!
`shimin - cute bigheaded, smallbodied DOG.! grey and white. and a nice letter.
`wenqi- hugg from wenn. sweet.
`karyn - drawn-on-the-whiteboard-i n-black-inked cake with 3 candles!
`tutor and others - chocolate birthday cake, money sponsored by mr.lim, chosen by fungmei and kailing.
`3N, tuition pple, family, unknown group of strangers and some buncha pple from nushs - birthday song.
`family - birthday cake. brown white pinkk! chocolate! rocks.
`eugene - birthday song...mmm. musical? sent on msn. gee! cute lah.!
`gabriel - drawn-on-msn birthday cake. in red and blue? hahahah!
--apologies if i left out anyone.


*huggs__
[all those who wished me.]
` 3n pple. [ first to wish me on the day itself, youyingg! ]
` ex-classmates, cedarians.
` handbellers.
` family.
` tution people.
` fungmei.
` lynn.
` ben foo kor [ first to wish, on thursday? haha LAST thurs!! ]
` jeremy
` eugene
` kwanchiu
` doreen
` melissa (sim)
` shinwei
` sylvia
` sherry
` shimin
` gabriel
--and the rest whom i may have forgotten, so sorrry.


too lazy! to continue on the list. arghh!
but wannnaa express gratitude see?
yeahman.
veryy touched. esp from the handbell pple!
and mr.lim.
mmm.
and pple whom i dun even know (except eugene and benfoo) from nushs, singing me that birthday song!
hahahaha. so sweet.

overall the day wasnt good.
this yearr so different.
i was/am not happy.
but i wont elaborate on, further moree.
ohwell.
theres always next year.
joeychan din come sch today!
din get to pon lit! cos i don wanna pon with others see.
they dont wan oso. boo.! x(
grr. x((

mmm.
got hit on.
buncha guys in the bus. (one/few guy/s damn cute! haha. but im not a blushing giggly girl lah. gees. -rollseyesatyou-) 
one poor thing no seat so he stood for almost the entire journey man...
hahaha.
communicated through phone.
typed msg. not sms.
was irritated before, so felt more irritated when they came behind me, discuss about me, near me.
argh!
butohwell.
apologised n i sorta smiled.
sort of. okay.
sang a birthday song from me.
cos a few decided that they do not acknowledge the word "privacy".
thus seeing the doodlings in my phone while i typed out.
and reading them out. to the rest.
ohwell. din get to read what they typed for me. grr.
they were late for their whatever anywayys.
hehh.

ahhyes.
im quite troubled.
howw!
and tmr laixun's bday.
HAVENT GOTTEN HERS!
grr.

going to make ic with her!
xD

ohya.
reading quite funny la.
i was sleeping. dreaming.
then got awoken by noisy song.
real fact, a cute birthday song from dear class 3n.
sweet la!
but they neh see me blush and say thankyou!
grr.
so.
"thanks! take a boww." *muacks.!!
*grins.
that got me smiling.
n make me have a dent in my forehead la!
oww.
laughs-

memorable part during mt when nsn wished me.
hohoho.
and karyn toos!
her cute cake. x))

baah.
i lost many seating partners.
days been going along boringly or quite urghishly.
dont wish to remember.
just kept flashing.
ahhwells...


nevermindd that.
oh and i realised. right.
my colours are frigging bright!
BUT WHO CARES.
i like it! xP

haas.
okay. im happy being served today!
other wise, sadd smile to people.
raah!

so on, so on.

i am still full from two chocolate birthday cakes! woah shit la.

i rock stones. *grins. i am glad.
hee.s.


- 'i smiled today. happy? *smiles.
taa___


[[ this blog is getting locked soon and again. those who have my pw, its the same. cya. the rest, i bid you goodbye. thanks for dropping by. till then, gooodday/night!! x) hee. ]]


you guys, made my day`.
uhhuh uh huhh-

1, 2 step.

uhhuhhhh. groovey.
i like how the chorus sounds.
so shakeyourbody-ish!
haaa.
ahh. like ummm goodies, lose my breath. blaaah.
very nice. then can shake body nod head.
haaaa. x)

anyway.
goodmooder today!
lolls.
woots. i like the peopls sitting beside/near me!
partner on the left aka yingx. smtimes to my right for assembly.
partner on the right aka joeychan! and somtimes in front of me during assembly.
hohoho.
and and.
xinya who uses pinkk.
yaju. i like her little boy playing guitarr. darn cute.
andd wennqi. mmm. =))
no words more. haaa-

okae.
napfa's goood.
i like the aftermath of running lots.!
wooots.
tho lungs felt darn bad. my ass hurt for shitting too much big time.
BUT. x) heart's light!
and thats all matters. not all, but kinda all?
yeahh.

poor shehzhadee tho. =(
ahhhwells...
andd!
uhm. i duno my timing leh. grrr.
better be better than last year.
LAST YEAR WAS FRIGGING SCREWED CANN!
grr.s

hmms.
sortof ponned handbell today! haa. OPPS.
then walked back with yingx joyce and chlo.
ate ice cream!
crapped. had light funn.
=D i like it.


SPORST DAY TMR!
shit rockkin'!
or, will be lah!
=D i hope?
hope hope hope!
HOPE WITH ME.
cos last years one? sucked abit. GRR.

GO ROSE!
haa. GO PINK!!
gee. no dyed pink hair? or pink face paint?
BUT. theres always the weirddd PINKK ribbons and cloth and umbrellas and banners MANN! x))
woohoo??
gees.

im pretty tiredly high.
haa. dunoe if that makes any sense.
unlike joey, who never do.
=P
gee.
i wan macs HASHBROWN!
yah huh. yahuhhhh.

i really am crazi. shld stop.
smacks self-

yeahmann.
relays rockk stones. hmm.
so does debates, with yingx the pro in our group.
then theres oso joeyy YA yaju WENN. and the dearest me.
woo yeah.

taa_.

yeahman.
im finally moving this blog again.

changed seating plan and arrangement today!
ehhh.
im register 3 sitting in between registers 2 and 4.
cute huh. x))
joeychan and chenyingx!! hehhs.
i will talk about the electric fann thing. hohoho.s

gee.
ayeee.
had tuition today.
umm.
okay lar.

eh. went with twin moosquare chipmunkk n pann.
liying dint come! =(
so i felt odd.
as in its odd number.
n the fact that they are all familiar with each other.
n theres more than a few times when i am left out.
dry laughterr.
ohwelll!!
haa. anyway im not in a funn n crappy mood lahh.
so its OKAY.

haa.
but felt SO frigging extraded!
then again. i cant quit tuition jus cos of that rite/.
grr.
hmm. oh. n met a magician n its girlfriend.
n panda's older-lookalike.
n mr lim.
all, nice =)
haas.

eh.
tmr got 2.4
haiya.
then im quite tired noww la.
AIYAHH.

i dont love seeing girls pestering guys. =x

heh. OPPS.

lets wonder.
i think i gave dearest pandora this pw.
n for now, oni like chlo beat n yulingg knows.
n ummm yying, sarah. sarah forgot LAH. haa.
hmm.

baah.

i better watch my words. =/
tho its the whole reason of locking, but i seem to be too softhearted to be giving it away.

i should really watch what i blog.

taa-

-skips back home happily-
how about..

school was not bad.
i did not pon two periods today.
i did not cry at school today.
the entire school minus the absentees and teachers and such were not given 4 self-reflecting lectures consecutively.
ms leong did not shout in fury and scold us all today.
neither did mrs tan, miss chia and a prefect.c as well.
i did not feel lousy today.

=)


i dont know. LAH.
im so confused.
i dont even noe why i cried.
at first. it was jus reddening eyes and felt-like-crying in front of chlo and youying.
then yuling brought me to my seat after recess, for reading.
then she left. then i put my head down and started crying.
i couldnt stop the tears or the itchiness of my nose, or my body from shaking.

laixun stopped her insults and taunts.
everyone became quieter around me.
they ignored. or are too scared to say/do anything.
did not even ask.
i feel so comforted.
not.

or how about. they did not even know i missed two whole periods.?
one and 3/4 la.
raaah. nvm.

rushed to toilet, thenn met junior. blurr.
then went back to get yuling. and the karmun tissues.
yuling was being nice and ponned everything with me.
we stayed at the corner of the toilet.
glared/stared at people who came in. who looked at us strangely.
weirdddd.
smiled at renhui who asked about me.
tried not to cry infront of nice dearr karmun who offered even more tissues, and toilet paper, and wenqi.
you know. keeping quiet and staring blankly, sortof tells you who are your real friends.
or who really care.
or who are nicer.
they dont straight away leave youu. they stay, at least for a bit.
they check on youu.
aahh. too nice.

then right.
very unknowingly and unconsciously missed bio.
and got youying with us in the end too.
apologised to misspng.
felt scared about bio.
and.

worst was.
i did almost all i mentioned in previous previous entry.
i did those annoying things that annoyed people.
arghhh.
i shld stop caringg man. i'd prob live better. than now at least.
i sighed. cried. felt lousy. dao-ed abit. glare abit. sighed more. kept head down.
but i did not drown in self-pity. grr. i wont. not jus now lah.


hm. soo..
howw come.
i feel im so weak when i cry?
why did people stare at me as if im a weirdo. a weakk weak person who cries in front of everyone else?
whyy.
if not. they jus pretend i do not exist.
and the sobs were merely the wind blowing.
okay. i wld not have cared that much.
but thenn. whyyy did i feel so weak?
why the fuck did i cry.
why am i so weak.
why so self-conscious. yuck.
why are they so guarded.
why are they so fake.
why the hell are they my classmates whom i HAVE to face for another oneplus more year?
so many whys.
wheres the "because"s.

WHY DONT I KNOW THE REASON I FUCKING CRIED?
argh thats so stupid.
jus a wave of lousiness.
jus a case of pmsing.
jus more friends dumping me, adding on to the wave of lousiness and case of pmsing mentioned above.
and thus this is prob the reason(s) that led to the above in bold and caps.
why the hell. did i feel blank, then?
anyone who is able to provide me with an answer, supported with evidence?
enlighten me. no please.


i hate.
one day friendships.
i hate.
people who act like they are your good friends but actually they arent.
i really, know that they arent.
so why all the pretense?
i dont know.


nevermind.
endup. i did not burst our in tears and cry my heart all out like i wished to.
i couldnt.
tanwenqi's pat on the head almost triggered me.
if there was a hug from youying or her.
i would have started already.
haaa.

nah stop all this talk.
lets go on to another.


i wann *thank.

yuling` for being there. literally and emotionally. and for your letter in the morning even before it happened, and that piece of filter paper that is now covered in your pretty pink words. oh and the huggg.
chloe` for your one fattening vanilla-flavoured biscuit. and the letter and replies.
youying` for the talks, for your letter. for your understanding and for being there.
sarah` for asking, for that nice postcard.
karmun` for your many tissues and toilet paper. and for asking, for being there and all.

beverly for being nice, asking, and the rub on the back. lalitha for asking and moree rubs on the back. joey for asking, and the letter thing. laixun for your pinkdolphin drink, for suddenly being nicer than usual.. gee thats scary actually. xinru for asking. wenqi for that pat. siewboon for asking.


and *sorries..

yuling` for making you worry. and make you skip bio etc.
youying` for worrying you too. and thinking that something happened to me.
laixun` for screaming at you more than jus once. for no reason at all.

yeahthatsaboutit.


im ending soon.
no need for more annoyance coming for thou.
i am getting irritating.
im too tired to care about you and your thoughts about me being weak.
so jus bug off, okay?

dont even bother telling me lifes just like this.
yes i know.
these are nonsensical rantings you shouldnt care about.
no one does really care anywayyy.
so really, bug bug bug off man.
especially guys who think they understand girls and that they totally make sense about girl stuff when they so do not.
not specifically going against ANYONE, dont get offended.
but just.
urghh.
dont be irritating.
can already


went home by bus and pangsehed alot of people.
went with youying.
talked. felt better i guess.
and on the other bus home.
i hoped, the bus exploded and left with oni one dead person.
the rest can escape n survive, i dont care.
but i want my death to be seemingly accidental.
gee. i wont commit suicide man. or that...its not being planned.
thats so silly!!
and why?
cos people WILL discourage me from being brave enough to die in my own hands.
i WILL end up not suiciding! urgh no point rite.
so i wont.
unless its pure accidental, murder, natural disease, sudden heart attack, or spur of the moment sort of suicide.


so, youying, read up there. =) i wont die yet kae?
nothings gonna happen to me yet.
i wont leave yet.
i shall hang on here until i can stand it no more and i can hold on no more.
till i decide, i will no longer hang on, hold on, and be able to stand it.
this alr contradicts my wishful thinking of not thinking about being dead.
urgh.
im so weak.

why am i unable to say this truthfully?
" i dont give a fucking damn"
why not.

i wish i could man!
haa.

just. just, dont leave me alone.

i feel less blanker, less sleepy than just now.
uhm.
but more confused. more tired.
is that better?
blah.

blehblehbleh!
i shall go sleep. nowww.
hopefully. things go away and this is all a stupid dream.
pinchpinch*
grr. hurts.!
blahhh.
i just dont know what to think and feel anymore.

i really wanted to cry. wanna let it all out.
but i just couldn't.
theres just something holding me backk.
but what is it?

hahh. better stop my questioning before the ratio of my questions to answers near infinity:1.

i dont wanna wake up. 

howw. whyy.


just, a bit more.

monday monday monday.
people, its still and only monday.
tomorrow will be tuesday.
only the 2nd day of the week.

what the fuck is wrong with you guys mann?!
i really wanna scream. no, this time its not me depressive.
hello!? i tried so hard to not scream at your face(s)
sheesh.

i dont wann so many of my friends to jus rot away like that like a total weakling when they CAN survive and live through all these.
i mean, there are pple in worse situations than youu.
no one's perfect. neither will their lives be.
its just how you treat yourself and handle life situations.
YOU are just making it worse by thinking you have the suckiest life in the entire universe.
and thats definitely not helping. not helping you, me, anyone.
okay?

i dont wanna grab your fucking collar/shirt and slap you to wake you up okay.
neither do i wanna scream your ears off and my lungs out.
not that you aint worth my time.
its just. things can/may backfire.
and thats really, not what is supposed to happen man.
its not.

i cant stand it man!
yeah i was like that too.
drowning in self-pity.
sympathizing myself, irritating and totally ignoring those around me who are always there or sometimes there, caring for me.
yeah. i dont want them sad. i dont want myself sad.
so i went on. this is life, guys.
i hope you read this.
and this entry is not dedicated to any specific little person. okay.

yah anyway.
shld get a life man.
a life nicer than now at least. you are the one killing yourself inside though you have almost no reason to.
dont you see there are so many people you are hurting in the process, just cos you are convinced you, have the fuckiest life?
why it seems so, is merely cos you are being fucky about it.
thus it is.

dont i make sense now!!
mygoodness. tsk tskk.
at least i think i do.
gee.

im continuing.
yeah. then right.
i may not be right, but since im ranting these all. so i think i am. and i do hope you listen here, now, and carefully.

get a fucking life LAH.

or rather. get hold of your life.
dont let it sink into your deep pool of self-sympathy.
neither must you let yourself drown in there hor.
its totally not worth it man.

just. just. think of others i guess.
ee i also dunoe. i just feel like ranting.
uhhh. okay.
cheryl said before right.
you have this life, so might as well enjoy it and live it properly, happily.
at least you die with happy memories, with a smile and all.
unless you are murdered and no one knows whos the murderer, then i dont see a reason why you should smile. really!
ahh. so many possibilities of not smiling when/while you die.
umm. aint gona point them all out and contradict myself any further.
yahwells.

stop. stop. stop.
stop hurting yourself in any way possible. unless they are all accidents...then i have nothing to say.
stop wearing that irritating fucking expression that only shows that you want to appear weaker than you are.
you all are pretty strong. BUT. you just had to want people to sympathize you, to crowd around and and. and. uh. i dont know. umm. and just feel pampered. more than usual at least.

maybe thats not wrong. but dont do that so often cann. its damn annoying!
betcha its annoying to you too if i do that every single day.
look at you with those depressive eyes. sigh all day. dao people. slam stuff. ignore caring people and their caring caring caring comments and words. or, pretend to ignore them la.
thats like so horrible.!
and un-beneficial or wdv that is.
isnt it?

okay. maybe at times you have a pretty good reason to be quite depressive.
fine. do that all week then.
but now you SERIOUSLY have not much of a problem man!
oh i dont know!
you are exagerrating it and everything. you are creating a problem for yourself. you are making it a bigger problem.
and thats why, you noe what?
you are the biggest problem and obstacle in/of your life.

gee. i havent crossed my own obstacle(s) or solved my own self-pitying problem either.
but i have to say this lah.
dont flame. shrug.
at least, i think i appear to be less self-pity-ish than you fucking are.
well thats good for me i guess.
aah yes.
self-denial.! haa. thats not the point.
okae.

harsh harsh harsh.
but thats the exact tone she used on me to wake me up. SORT OF. whoops.
was a painful hard slap. ouch.

therefore. i shall happily use it on you guilty souls who maybe feeling something after reading this.
if you actually have the patience to read this all lah!
whoa man. quite long.
gee no. damn damn long. ew. yuck. urgh.
maybe it should be deleted.
yikes.!

yeah. this shall end soon.
just. i hope my rants actually ehhh sort of. uh welll. helped?
BAH.
whatever.

you dont bother about all these.

but still.
i'll tell you this okay.
i care.
so. can you just stop hurting yourself and others? please.
and do me a favour.
stop refusing all our help too. trust me, we are all there for youu.
whether you like it or not!! hmph.
hee. ehh. and we maybe able to help youu too.
so no point pushing us away again and again right?
hehhs. no harm done man!


'this is life.


nevermind. today was pretty fun i guess.
handbell was better. no jogging. nice cool weather. wooots.
yeah okae.

and hii to jeremy and yingting too. =)

woohoo-
dont get me wrong.
im actually in a pretty good mood today.
and still quite.
tho was pretty pissed n urghed-up just now. but its all over.
hope your own problem waves will calm too.
yeahmann.-


and then right.
pardon me. this aint supposed to spoil anyone's day.
or ruin anyone's mood or anything.
my thoughts, in my blog.
read it if you wish. comment if you want. tell me anything personally if can.
in msn. im usually online. gee.
and right. this is not supposed to make anyone feel worse either. hehhs.
it had better not anywayy.
i'm sorry anyway.
andd.

thankyouu` and good day to all. goodnight too. *smiles


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p.s.___inform me to delete this if any of you wish. telll me personally and not here lah kae. msn or smth.

=)

carrot is nice. carrot is adorable. carrot can be a daokia. carrot is cool.
carrot is my hubby. xD
carrot is uhh cough*niceandfriendly*cough. yea x))
carrot is also silly.

and my mom n sis asked if i am a les. =/
with carrot the lesbian partner.? hurr! x)
but she was my partner for that day. yeahman.

there. thats nice of me!!
lying about zanne being nice and all. hohoho. =x


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/bboy- hey dear =)
/evan- hello girl!
/bryan- yes they do!!
/jeremy- uh OKAY. x) hello !!
/yying- hiie. yeah i am. +D hehhh

*charmainee- uhhh! hii ! =P yes i see youu toos.
Ru` yeah thanks mann.!! haa. im willing laa. yes, you so do/did. =D
'zanne! CARROT SEAH. =DD not edited! but this is ANOTHER entry! hees. =))
ineZ darling- haa. reallllyyy. =x yeah silly zanne. x) of cos everyone agrees! ohhey. she nvr apologise for being mean to me lorr. how cann!! =P



i shall update my fic. soooon. maybe tmr? for clover's sake! =) and mine i guess.

done.-

x) im married.
shit so happy !!


hohohohh. =D
went on date with carrot tday!
went cine heeren heartland.
gee.twasfunn-

i LOVE our neos!
one of the bestest la.
=( i like lost my darnestcute neos from march holi outings lah!

cant stop staring at the neos! sooo cutee!
me. me. carrot. carrot. =D
hugg hugg!! yupps.
mom thinks its possible that im really les. =x opps.
sister warns me not to be one. =x opps-er
but ohwell!

anywae. promised a nice entry all about my carrot.
more widely known as suzanne.
that dao dao looking one? yeah that one.
=)) but shes not dao!
shes merely ANOTHER lamer. join man.
lame until like. hurr. also keep suaning!
ee. wads the world doing.

x) haa.
okae! ehhh. i wanna watch CREEP! haaa. 14 april. yeahman.
then right. zanne wants SAMARA.
woohoo. i crave for horrors.
after i've got quite enough of action, romance n comedies. hehhs.


umm lets see.
events. todae.
aprils fools' dae this year was okaaay la.
haa but abit beta than last year i guess?
end up din do that sec3LEVEL joke! uhhhh- rite.
n mrs choo saw thru. shehz was cute. =)

tests/TAs were okay i guess.
=/ bit flunkyable. but i still wanna pass. duhhh.
then right. i swear xinya and laixun arh. umm.
they are in a desperately serious need of health checkups.
i felt and still feels so sane. =) joey ru nathiya toos.
i think..

hmm. no emaths remedial today!!
yeah. so had more time with date. =D
sweet la.
and darnit!! tanxinru im not les lah! or at least i dont think so.
if i am. i tell you kae? GRINS.


ahha. thenn went out. walked out to pp mrt. longg walk! zanne was being silly.
saw joyce, waved!
then longgg journey to orchard. found our way to cine.
i got proposed to, before that. dunoe when n i forgot when. but yea i said yes.!
ate long johns. she crapped again. =)
ate chicken fish and fries there. fries, awesome. nice la!
browsed shops. wallet shops! haa.
then took nice neos. hugged n all. x) sweeet.

got over to heeeren.
this time i paid. she owe me la!
sooo many pple owe me money. ee. like 20 bucks. huhh!
i wanna feel rich. so damnit pay me backk! i dont feel like asking. haa.
initiative, guys.
yeah. talking bout heeren rite?
thenn umm. went wallet shops again. browsed shops again.
found way to neos place! took. loved it. xD

din split until after getting stuff for angel/mortal/mortal's friend.
at heartland mall.
then -skipskipskip-
she entertained me againn. so many times la. lame-oo.
a veryyy cute n daoish one okay! haaas.
umm. then found my way to this bustop where i took 25 back amk.
x) said bbye suzanne.!! heh.

and den uhh. pooed at amk. eww! but quite shuang.
got home. =P
wats not shuang is that. im totally broke.
im in need of MONEYmoneymoney laa!! xO

wooots !

i feel bad for being a mistress and a wife to two diff pple at once.
haa. maybe not.
=D

replytaggs next time la. lazyy! but thanks for nice taggs. kae!!

haha. faizah damn cute la! thank me for the fries. x)
and pearlyn, sining. representing guides for assembly this morning.
so damnn cute! umm. heart aflamed or smth rite. =x heh.
i wan join the campfire! like quite funn lidat. xD
and go support 3n guides. n the restt. hohoho!!

okae..
noww.

taa-

today was/is really happier.

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