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| Long awaited Sports meet! and surprises...=) |
| 04.30.04 (1:24 am) [edit] |
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lalala~ i decided to blog today. soo much fun mann! i waited for sports day for soo longg...yeahh, and screamed alot. sports day was quite alright...i realli like the ixora and oleander and bougainvillea cheerleading dance! gardenia not too bad...just a lil messy. oleander was full of ballet dance moves, so graceful. then bougainvillea damned entertaining, esp tt part when ppl started running out with blue hoods...lol. ixora's was plain nice. rose...yeahh, the dance moves were cool...just a bit bit disorganised cos too many ppl...but still its nice! =D i spotted clara shinwei shiang nee and sheena most of the times.. yupp, then clara was quite enthu about it, nice dancing. i saw shinwei jumping about at the side...and shiangnee oso at the side, end. sheena danced quite well too...then at the last part, i was staring at the front where ppl were bending backwards, or smth liddat. interestingg~ oh anyways, gardenia won...obviously, and i tink ixora and oleander came next...yepp, ixora got most of their points at the previous events, while gardenia was leading the whole time...they were cheering all the way man! so enthu...siao sia... yeahh, kinda expected tt rose wun win...cos heard seniors complaining tt rose nvr wins recently. but hey, so glad some of the prizes were won by our class! the 4x100 relay was so cool! wanjing started out fine, but the others like so fast lor...then shiangnee was next, and she over took 1 or 2 ppl. then valerie was quite steady...they all flying liddat...then jennifer was DAMN fast. she caught up so much, and won third. v good liaos... then she oso won individual 100m...1st! kekeke... yeahh sports day was okayy lahh...took sum cool pictures in the process too Then, christine nikki beat evan mel jamie and i went jamming after the meet. i was told we were gonna surprise mel with a birthday party or smth...budden, beat oso told mel tt they are celebrating it for me. so tt stoopid beat, liar liar, told the real plan to the rest. yupp and the others got this black forest ice cream cake for mel n i! (with the words "Happy birthday charl and magaret!" on it) coool huh? got quite surprised, and enjoyed the cake....its soo frozen and hard man! lol. beat ran all the way to the shop to get the cake, while nikki slowed mel and i so tt we wun get there too early...yeah. then nikki and christine shared a present (cute pillow) for me. then we went jamming at the music studio... - Nicholyn and i, vocals and percussionists - Beatrice, drums and occasionally guitars. - Evangeline, pianist/keyboardist. - Jamie, guitarist. - Melissa, bass guitarist. then christine left early...sigh sigh. oh anyways, we played and sang songs...duh~ - At the beginning - Graduation - My heart will go on - Dancing queen? - School song in rap/hip-hoppy version. (v nice...got the drums and everything...lol) so yeahh...enjoyed myself throughoutly, hope to go again...wanna have more ppl in a bigger room tho! =P |
| last request |
| 04.28.04 (6:10 am) [edit] |
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woah. i damn luv this blog. lol so dedicated to it. now i feel so bad...to wanna give up on this in the first place. maybe not...i will still be updating on it. but only on sch stuff. nth else. at least i dun tink so? they are too personal...plus i wun wan anyone to read it and feel unhappy after tt. its not worth it. unless u like this blog too, then request it back so i know tt there is a need to continue updating this. and at the same time, use my other blog for other uses as well. but if u hav nth to say about this, then nvm, most likely, i m abandoning this blog. serious. |
| last moment |
| 04.28.04 (2:20 am) [edit] |
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heyyz...last time here...or rather, i wun be touching this for quite sum period of time. yepp...maybe sumtimes, but most of my stuff goes to the accnt i jus created from another place. dun even ask k, unless u really wanna know. so yeahh...plus, my new blog will be locked soon as i figure out how to lock it...=P with melissa's kind help. yea...i really like this blog tons! but yah, too many ppl knows this... and recently, personal stuff has been added one too many times and i hav hurt others feelings in the process. so yepppz...sorry for those who felt insulted. and of cos, those who are offended due to my blog entries or my violent mood swings. p.s. my eng grammer and vocab was nvr good...apologise for typo. =) |
| Thankfulness... |
| 04.26.04 (7:33 am) [edit] |
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thankx! ahh~ celebration with me family soo fun! haha. they got a super pink b-day cake for me man...like, err... its a pink cake with pink decorations and pink sugar coating with pinkish rabbits sitting on top and pink candles, then theres also pink sugarish flowers. -_- wad the...lol, my mom chose it... kekeke. i need to thank more ppl now!~ Newly-added on my thank-you list...those who wished me! - Sihui (handbell sec 3 senior) thru msn - Yeoh Yuan ( mfps fren) thru msn - Alicia (sum gal i just met) - Papa, thru long distance call from China - Kavin (sum guy i knew thru msn, clara introed) yeahh...tts about it? haizz anyways... on the added present list... - Mama = Large version of my white-grey-brownish stuffed dog with light fragrance - Big sis and Mum = Black jacket - Second sis = Cute handphone accessory tks! yea...had pizza tonight. sum funni looking supreme thingy, supposed to be hawaiian tho. .< >yupp, then din do any hw...and slacked the whole day, esp since i came home late, bathed late, ate dinner late. arr...still hav maths and eng hw left! and scared ltr tmr swimming wld be tough...arggh*~ So damn tired now man...but still soo early! ugh~ came here to blog, cos no one to chat on msn...sniff sniff~ ahhwells. so farr, my fav pressies...the dog my mum gave me, and the penguin (dolphine!) chlo mel beat shared. =P! haha. p.s. happi bird-day to.. -xinyi (mfps chinese orchestra fren...my best partner in concerts!) -manpreet (sum sec3 tracker whom i've seen b4 but nvr talked to b4. lol.) -and one of beat's fren whose bdae's today! lalala~ |
| Happy Birthday, Charlotte! |
| 04.26.04 (2:59 am) [edit] |
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Happie Birthdae to ME...!!! =D yayy! lol...so exceptionally neat today manz...waha. morning, i met up with kwanchiu at da bustop to let him give me my pressie...then alicia was there too! i got the present, thanked him, glared at him for bullying alicia, and both of us girls went to a far corner to avoid him. lol! then alicia and i chatted the entire bus trip to her sch bustop...and totally ignored his presense. haha, anyway they (from zhonghua) got eng and chi compo exam today...gd luck. eh, i know its too late...so good luck for the rest of the subjects then! =) reached sch, and few ppl came up to me, SMILING, and wished me happie birthday...cool...so many! much much more than last yr...=P Those who wished me happi birthday and i heard it and remembered it...=P I am totally touched to tears. Seriously. 2N - Charmaine - Jennifer - Amanda - Xiao wei (1st to say, together with jo) - Jolene (1st to say) - Shimin - Karyn - Wanjing - Clara - Jessica (in my memory, yes..) - Beatrice - Nicholyn - Melissa - Chloe - Christine - Jamie ( i stared at her...and forced the 3 words out) - Sylvia - Liying - Marion - Irene - Sokyin (i tink...) - Rochelle - Mingjin - Pearlyn - Silin - Sherry (i guess?) - Lilin - Shinwei - Yeongeun - Shu en (not sure) - Liming - Yvonne (?hee?) Other Cedarians (present and ex) - Jia Hui - Mahendran Family - Mama - Big sis - Second sis yupp tts it...soo funni...only 2 other cedarians not from my class? sheesh~ oh...i very guai today! =D Other than the fact tt i was counting birds and tracing out clouds and commenting on the beautiful sky with the pretty pwetti clouds during history science and maths lessons, theres nothing else. =P! Tay caught me not concentrating on my hw and said i was counting birds, and finding rainbows...then said sum stuff...but hey! I was actually looking at the clouds, THEN i tried finding rainbows, THEN i counted sparrows. eish~ then charmaine was sabo-ing me! *hmpf* yeahh, then during recess and the rest of the day, mel beat jams christine chloe shinwei nikki char shimin all gave in to me cos its my...BIRDAY! waha! soo cool! kekeke... then I went out with chloe christine jamie and nic... first, intended to go sum petshop near chloe's...BUT its not open and she went back home. so, stupidly, christine jamie nikki and i jus boarded the 135 again and went to amk central...eat macs... christine did sum handphone survey as we ate macs, and we were joking about and laughing like siao...then we went to library...with the intention of reading books? budden we ended up with a vulgar conversation, tons of snoring, and laughing like hell. waah~ the entire conversation, had almost 196 f***s in it can??? mostly contributed by christine and nikki. (cant tell nikki's THE SORT rite? hehe) ranked from most vulgar to least FOR TODAY...christine nicholyn charlotte jamie. yupp, for today. jamie only said about 4? dunno lah...but i know christine and nikki were like " f*** you-ing" each other so many times, and jamie and i just sat there laughing our heads off. laughed sooo much man! so much funn! coool... yea...we were goofing off soo much...funnest! then christine mum send me home...and well, i got home. okay i m starting my thank you list now. Thank you... - Melissa Beatrice Chloe = A blue beanie squishy penguin, which I named Dolphine. - Amanda = Honey-brown bear, which I called "Wuzzy" (wa-zee) - Shinwei = Purple sqooshy squashy hippo (a wrist rest) and a metal blue-silver seahorse bookmark. - Liying = Grape-flavoured Hichew, and blackcurrant Fruitips. - Kwan Chiu = Silver piggy photoframe. - Lilin = Yellow rabbit. - Charmaine = Small cute and yellow woodstock.(hee!) I am totally perky today man! I kept repeating "oh HII!!!" to mel thru the phone now, while munching on the left over chocolates and chomping greedily on those yummy sweets good ol liying gave me. oh yah! Sorry, I did give identical chocolates to the class...Half class had Disnee, 3/10 had Crunch and 2/10 had 2 small bars of chocolates. OH YEAHHH! i forgot... Thanks a million gazillion starz, 2N! for the birthday song...and thank clara and jessica (i tink)for starting it. I was totally smiling, all amused, and got all warmy and cosy in the heart, so i busied myself in packing my bag. yeahh...and i wrote a note of thanks on the board. yepp p.s. Congrats Jennifer for getting 1st! (for wad event, i seriously cant rmb...sry!) |
| International Friendship Day celebrations and Chinese MYE |
| 04.25.04 (8:11 am) [edit] |
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kk i try rmb wad happened these few days...=P Friday- today got international friendship celebrations!!! but shinwei din come...=( ahh sheesh...anyways, i got evan's friendship band! whooo! yay...its nice! wonder which unlucky peep got mine tho...hmms...my band looks weird i know. okie, i totally forgot wad happened in sch today...other than me and charmaine being blurblocks during maths...? aha...maths damn boring and i hate tt stupid big face of tay. i dun get a thing! um. rather, i forgot how to do and draw straight-line graphs! charmaine din know how too, and i dun get jolene's graph...cant ask liying and karyn, cant call out to beat or amanda...so charmaine asked shimin. budden we dun get shimins graph either. so both of us merely looked ard and everybody's soo buzy! waah i feel so darn stupid man. =(! dun talk bout maths. btw, the combined assembly was fun! =DDD! i din quite get wad the first grp was blabbering about, but i know its smth about Denmark Italy and...Dutch? oh wadeva...interesting tho, those taiwan delicacies too. kekeke... then, got sm dances by the chinese, ehh...thai? and smth about bamboo...oh, and the malay and indian dances? yupp. i like the indonesian dance tons! enjoyed it mainly cos senior was there...da one who kept laughing all the way...i tink her name's sandra. aiyah, dun even communicate with seniors can? dun even know most of them... yeahh, then got yeongeun n another korean gal...yeongeun v cute! lol she kept laughing tho...=D arghh....anyhow disqualify our team?! they worked soo hard...tho i din exactly know wad happened, but i know they did their best! =( *han yuan ah* ohohoh! and nicholyn stayed over at me house tonight! waah~ first one kk... its quite nice, but could be more fun-ner if there aint an exam the next day. =P lol she left her handphone and sandals behind as well... Saturday- today got chinese exam! ahh...shant elaborate much but i got my present from amanda on friday, and beat and melissa on saturday...thanks! i like tt amanda bear...wuzzy! then tt penguin...tho i wld prefer a dolphin...so i called my blue penguin dolphine! =) the common tests were easy, but this exam is soo...not? waah~ i just stumbled for the main paper2 can? usually i look forward to the paper2 only! then my compo and functional writing thingy is total crap can? darn...and all my answers for 4 outta 5 questions for the compre were identical...-_- damn! ahhwells...at least its all over and done with. um...26th's a nice day...happy occasion on tt certain day...so yeah? *hinthint* (ppl looking away and ignoring me) a certain person's birthday... *HINTHINT* (glares at those ppl) That is a happy thing. =) p.s Thank-Q Shinwei Amanda Beatrice and Melissa...=) I will have another thank you list again...soon p.p.s Congrats to 10X50 team for winning silver. congrats to shiangnee for getting 2nd in high jump. congratulations to 4x400 team for doing so well. |
| eXams |
| 04.22.04 (1:26 am) [edit] |
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arr...how many days din blog?? Tuesday.. todae got swimming and i din go again. mel accompanied me, along with marion sokyin irene and a few others..then i was trying to tan myself, but my butt is scorching more than the rest of my skin. so i hopped ard on the bench and went further behind to where the others were in the shade. ended up as fair as before. i observed melissa's grp with interest, their methods of doing the pajamas thing is diff...and my grp as like doing soo many laps in pajamas?!? whoa...i tink its more than melissas grp can...yupp. too bad they din go diving. lucky me din miss it! yayy. after tt, nikki chloe mel silin christine yeongeun beat and i went macs for lunch...then after tt took sum neoprints and squeezed 4 peeps. then christine and silin had to go while the rest went back sch to watch the 10X50 and long jump finals.. we missed the previous 155, missed another bus to sch, and instead took bus8. but it was kinda slow, and we missed our bustop! whoa~! then chloe and nikki were warming up, forgot to stretch, and they jogged to sch as warm up. budden nikki got stitches and chloe got lost as well, so they paused for a while to wait for beat yeongeun mel and i. mel led the way to sch, while chloe and nikki jogged infront and i followed behind. yeongeun and beat were at the back.. then dunno where nikki and chloe went, think its the classroom to get their sports shoes...then mel and i bought one cup of ice cream to share together. beat and yeongeun disappeared after tt.. then mel and i got our bags, helped nikki chloe with theirs, looked ard for beat and yeongeun but failed, then separated with the rest. by the time we got near the track, nikki and chloe were trudging towards us, face down. heard from them tt when they got to the track for 10X50 finals, it jus ended and they missed it. so did the rest of us, who were eager to see it. aiyoh...missed it! then we all felt bad, and mel had to go liaos...for dental appointment. then she told me to wish the long-jumpers gd luck then she went off. chloe went off to look for sum ppl...dunno who. yeongeun and beat still missing. nikki rested for a while, feeling bad and stuff...then i offered her a drink, and pulled her up to at least go watch long jump finals. finally, she got up and we went to track to apologise again to clara jess and the others. wj and lilin took chloe and nikki's places...and they helped win back a 3rd place! GOOD FOR THEM! whooot. nikki chatted with chloes netball junior- sharon, and i merely sat there, throwing in sum comments along the way. our butts were cooking (yes, along with oil and butter) and we soon got up from the high place to sit with charmaine and the rest below. then i forgot wad happened in b/w...then i bought stuff for rochelle and i to drink... sat with charmaine, rochelle, priscillia, nicholyn...and watched shiangnee and sharon jump. they picked our the top 8 finalists and nikki and i cheered silently for sharon, but pity she didnt really make it...she could do better, i m SURE! =) nvm...she sec1, can try again next yr, plus, shes not sum tracker and i can see she tried...so yeahh. =) then charmaine priscillia rochelle nikki and i were hooting for shiangnee as she jumped the 1st try. 2nd try, we were staring at her in her ready position as she looked all concentrated and focused and everything...held our breaths (u can hear us not breathing) and she ran...jumped...landed quite nicely, then on her butt...ppl "ahh-ed"...and we gasped. the crowd clapped a lil. then it was soo far can! =D and we din hear how far it was...so all of us were gg "how was it? whats the result? shiangnee, how did you do? whats it?! HOW DID YOU DO?!?!?! WHATS THE RESULTS?! HOW FARR..." or smth liddat. then nsn looked at us (how glad she realised her classmates were there) and asked the teacher. can see her mouth twitching into a slight smile, and she replied "4.03m" and immediately we cheered LOUDLY. of cos...right? lol so funni...cos the other sec 2 contestants had no one to cheer for them, and only few claps were heard for them. then nsn's cheers were so loud. so cool! by the 3rd try, all of us were sumhow nervous for her. (ALL OF US, i tink?) then nikki was gg "dun look at her...ltr cause her to lose focus...try not to look at shiang nee." then yeah, all of us immediately concentrated on the sand, corner of our eyes trying to figure out wheres tt girl from our class. but i couldnt see, so i just shut me eyes and felt soo nervous! woah. then i heard footsteps and opened eyes in time to see her land in tt sandpit thingy. then we clapped for her, and soon charmaine and priscillia met up with sheena and left. rochelle left with them. oh...and evan was oso there! i forgot to mention...so yahh. then i did the most MOST stupidest thing, in front of everyone, the jumpers, throwers, sec1s, sec2s, teachers, coaches, friends, classmates. sharon and evan were staring, gasping. then ms lavina and the other teachers went "ahh...aiyoh!" and nikki stood there, still, and hand ova mouth. omg i almost caused tt poor sec1 girl to die of grief! and her first jump could be better...i din dare look at her 2nd jump, as the teachers gave her another chance to jump...omg i feel so damn bad! then smth was stinging in my eyes and i bit my lip hard. then evan vanished sumwhere, and after wishing sharon gd luck, nikki left to the foyer with me. i kept insisting it was "sand" i kept repeating tt stupid word to her. and complained, whined, and sniffed. i feel SOO bad...=( very veri badd... verie bad bad badd baddest. so without saying gdbye to nsn, i walked off to my bag with this really guilty exp. i tink she got 4th. but still good, earned 5 points for red house. then charmaine and priscillia n rochelle walked in front of us to the bus stop, while nikki was so kind to stay with me and walk slowly...with me feeling lousy all the way. i was hitting innocently-lying-on-the-g round-not-wanting-to-be-k icked-stones along the way, nikki comforting me the whole time. =) thanks. then i reached home and couldnt talk to my mum becos i felt so lousy. then i told her wad happend and ended up with muffled words. she understood sumhow...and i apologised for being sucha lousy crying daughter, and slammed the bathroom door in her face. i took a while to realise i was there and needed to bathe. then i cried 4 more times in a row in the toilet. came out, faced my worried sisters who heard my quivering voice jus now, and cried once more. ok...its more like tearing non stop and me insisting it was sand. I still feel bad. really lousy. haix* sorry, tt poor sec1 girl...sumore red house oso leh... decided to sleep at 8 cos i dun wanna keep thinking and crying abt it. Wednesday... changed seating arrangements to register order today... then before tt, during assembly, prize winners collected their uhh...prizes? and yup, my class din cheer at all when our team went up to collect theirs...i feel bad again. then after hearing only a few claps, i tried cheering but nth wanna come out, then beat hooted sumwhat loudly. haix nikki sounds real tired these days thru the phone, and its a short day! whoa. sad man.. still havent started with my revision. Thursday. nth much happened, other than our class was ultra quiet today during science. maths was okay, i guess? then we got tt health checkup thingy...and dragged till after recess and eng period. ended up playing during tt period...lol. was boreded cos no one talks to me ova there...other than occasional discussions with charmaine, and maybe shimin, jolene asks me sum questions once in a while...then amanda too. but no one else! haiz... tts it. p.s, oh, and TKS A MILLION MILLION MILLION STARZIES for tt b-day pressie...shinwei! =D I love them! da cutsie and sqooshy purple hippo wrist-rest of wadeva its supposed to be, and tt blue seahorse metal bookmark. they're reall cute! but, one qn...why does it havta be in a pink box? (pink box with blue ribbon and lil pinned flowers) oh, and nikki din cum sch today...jus found out after first period when shimin pointed out her absence...=P i feel bad again. then all of us worried for her can...she always dun cum...aiyoh. so scary! then nikki sms beat to ask me to meet her at central bustop F after sch to give hw...so i did. took a while to see nikki cos she late by 15 min...and seems like she went for a medical appointment in the morning...and got sum other problems...=( she makes ppl worry a lot. *sigh* she seems half angry half depressed...can tell she is really really furious, but kept hiding those tears. hot tears, i guess? Why do good ppl always suffer? why do they have worse lives? what did she do in her past life to deserve this?? sigh sigh sigh...its very saddening to see her like this u know...sumore she sits oppo me at the other end of the classrm now... =( i miss hers and evans company... cant miss beat cos she sits behind me during lab lessons, always in my other grps, sits infront of me now, last time sits behind me, and shes register 1 and i m no.2. darn its hard to shake her off. siao sia |
| injuries on the left |
| 04.19.04 (1:08 am) [edit] |
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ahh~ well, now in the com lab with melissa pearlyn nicholyn shinwei and a few others. yupp, then we were doing our recipe analyser...and mel did the same as . whooo~~sure die. =P! okie, then before that...got music for 1st period. I played can-can and the chickie song...and got an A1! for THE FIRST TIME in me life! (cos this is only the 2nd time of music practical in sec sch) yupp, then stupid (and I MEAN STUPID) nsn and beat were hiding at this lil corner where they were peeking their lil heads out and laughing at me...beat doing the chicken/birdie dance. waha. then clara and jessica were laughing at the back too? yeah i think. then marion was being real nice to cheer me on! =D then after i played, and stopped shivering (better than last yr's shaking), i heard these loud claps and cheers...the only person i saw was rochelle, b4 i hid my head and shrieked. -_- miss chye asked about the o level music option thingy and i m gonna try it out, tho i intend to drop it within 2 days. then after sch, went for lunch in the canteen with melissa beatrice and nicholyn. had fun, and screamed about. if only i can imagine jamie screaming with us too...but i cant visualise it. haixx. then i bought tt jbeenies ice blended thingy. it was nice lahhs, hmpf, budden mel and i drank it b4 ard Feb/March. whoa, still say its new! .< hmmz...>oh anyway, i held the cold cold suface of the bottle and hurt my swollen finger. the bubble had deflated and became all red and yellowish. eww huh? then beos of the stoopid jbeenies bottle thing, the biggest bubble on the worstest finger broke and opened up. blood spewed out. hmpf! if only i hadn't been so kind to buy it becos of nsn. i m so nice, i can't stand it sumtimes. then i hurt my arm, and it had thi ugly big long scratch on it. hn! and its my left index finger, and left arm. then after tt, mel and i were torturing this poor lil innocent branch full of leaves, and stomping on it. smth like "darn all those who hate melissa and whom melissa hates. To all those who hate charlotte and whom charlotte hates! to all those who hate nicholyn and whom nicholyn hates! to all those who hate beatrice and whom beatrice hates! To all those who hate Jamie and whom Jamie hates. To all those who hate Chloe and whom Chloe hates! TO all those who hate shinwei and whom shinwei hates!" yeahh...smth liddat. then we were all like, (all as in nikki mel and i) stepping cruelly onto the leaves and branches and cursing and swearing, jus outside the canteen. poor branch which jus happened to be there ready for torture at the wrong place and the wrong time! yepp, then we found a tennis ball in the bushes, picked it up and threw it ard. then we returned it back to its original starting place...and i threw it back into the bushes. and sumhow, i fell near the place where mr.tay and ms.leong(agnes) were approaching and almost (ALMOST), was close to humiliating myself infront of tt 2...i tink and hope i din.=P! budden i kicked this pile of invisible dust infront of me, hard, right infront of them, and shouted out sum curses, then left. ran up the stairs and realised i injuried my leg and knee. -_- guess what? left knee and left leg. double diao~ then my knee and leg bled a little...lil bit. =( it hurt and the skin tore! ok...it din bleed alot, i din show the rest, but yeah it was all scratched up. bloody. so bad luck cann? summore i got tt thing, hurt my arm, got a swelled-up and bloodied finger, while the rest of the 3 fingers had lil bubbles, injured my leg and knee. so all i see are blood! triple ughh*~ |
| and you call yourself my friend |
| 04.17.04 (7:44 am) [edit] |
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I am not only dedicating this to one person. But mostly to her. I was feeling damn hyper today till you showed up and made me feel soo lousy and rethink about friday's conversation. you always do that. you think you are the only one with problems in this world we all live in. you think you are the only one with a darned sucky life. you think you are everything. you think I have a wonderful and perfect life. But guess what? I dun. U rock sometimes, but u suck as well. I like you a lot most of the times, but I hate you now. You are such a weirdo. You act like a great friend, but to think back again, you've never really treated me like a real one before. not ever. you pretend as a cool friend, a good friend, a close friend, but in reality, you are soo not. you think you've the worst life and destiny ever, but have you ever thought about mine? No you did not. you never did. have you ever cared about my feelings when i did my best on you and the rest and am not appreciated at all? and instead reprimanded me cause i did not change your life into a perfect one? you really think i am god? that i can do wonders? well i tell you that, that i m not. disappointed, arent you? you care about everyone else. you tried your best, to help them. but you did not even try at all on me. and you call yourself my friend. |
| conference |
| 04.17.04 (7:00 am) [edit] |
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went to sch and meet teachers today...my mum was late. but nvm lah, anyway saw miss chye and mdm er todae. mdm er said my compos were good! oh, then my mum started all her critisms abt me (u DO know how mums LOVE to critisize their own children?) and stated tt my previous chi teacher in pri sch said i was too sensitive and my compos were suddenly very good, and very bad. ok wadeva lor...then mdm er said my mood swings this year were horribly terrible and said she had to see me too many times in a year (4 times only wad) and that my mum and friends should take notice of me more? like wad the hell? no one wld go take her words seriously lor! okie...then, she said i shouldn't think so much and burden myself with close ppl's own problems, and tt i shldnt worry too much, or make others worry abt me. dunn exactly know wad tt means but ohwells. then she told my mum happily tt i m very mature but thinks WAYY too much cos i presented my compositions and thoughts in sucha...matur-ish wayy. uh-huh. considering how mel beat nsn and the rest nvr said i was too mature... =) tho, mdm er said i am a nice gal and is doing quite okay in my studies so i had no major problems. just ze mood swings i hav often. too often, in fact. =( ohh....fingers got 4 bubbles! .< then only ultra big fat and cute one. so my fingers got real itchy *not literally, i dun scratch them* and started poking it and i realised theres this tiny hole-spot-dot on the ultra big big bubble. ignored it at first, but when i started playing piano, it burst and finger got lil sticky...ewwie! >anyway, i missed the bubble...it was so cute...and it grows! it went bigger and bigger then now deflated, so sad. tsk. |
| boreded fridays |
| 04.16.04 (6:31 am) [edit] |
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hahaa...i edit my previous post 6 times in a row ks...siao sia. now i feel soo accomplished! i m doing all my stuff since morning single-handedly! waha...-_- so boring now...haixx...ltr go blog again lol. the house is fallin' after i tried drowning everything down by singin nonstop with my horribly breathy voice. nic commented it was too airy and not nice. =( i sad loh, but nice ol beat said it was okayy to sound like tt cos i sounded nice. contradictions.. now i dun even know wad i'm blogging about man...go sing again now...this time chinese songs. my english songs cannot make it one. =P I respect this certain female...she has a diary which has only a few entries. after her death, ppl found out the reason why. she only recorded her happy memories in it...so this explains the limited number of countable entries in tt diary... heyy we can try tt too, so whenever we look back, we see the happy joyful stuff. not the depressing ones. or rather, i can go get a happy blog and a sad blog to go with my horrible mood swings. =) |
| bubbles and numbness |
| 04.16.04 (6:09 am) [edit] |
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Got scalded during sci 1st periods todae. stingin' pain...At first, i heated the test tube to dry it then when i was done, i put it onto the wooden thingy (forgot the name). then nikki started busying herself, and i looked at the glass tube i just heated and thot it was cold by now. 2 seconds, hell i was so stupid! so i held it, realised its hot and PUT IT BACK CAREFULLY so as not to break it. then noticed my 4 fingers were all red and bubbly...and i was waving my red hand all about, biting my lip. then nikki shrieked, and the rest kept calling my name...i heard distinctly. beat evan yeong eun were gg "charlotte!" and the others whom i cant figure out who were oso repeating my name ova and over again. then nikki looked panicked, and i jus stood there, staring at the redness which was spreading. then melissa came over, stared, and hurried me to wash my hand under running cold water. so i did wad i was told to do, and the pain was stinging by then. sumhow it got redder and a big bubble was forming on the index finger. so i switched off the tap and stared at it again, rubbing the sore part. it stung alot alot, so i bit my lip harder and i tasted metallic and my lip was sore. then i shut my eyes and tears formed. i felt really weak to tear ova such small matters, and brought my head down. then yeong eun looked over and called my worriedly. beat oso, then nikki just had tt worried exp. beat walked over, din say anything, and pushed this tissue into my hand. thanked her, which was barely audible cos i couldnt hear it myself, and wiped tears. then it kept coming, and i bit lip again (waah the lip is painer than the sore fingers). waved my hand about once more and was like trying to laugh it all off. somehow no one returned my laughs. nikki looked lil pained and quickly brought me to see teacher, and mrs lim was lil shocked. she was going "charlotte, scalded yourself? aiyoh! why so many fingers?! how u scald one?" i just explained, then kept applying the stupid cream which was tooo creamy and oily. then it stung even more. teared a lil bit more, and wiped away angrily. angry at myself. then apologised to nikki for holding the experiments up and she poked my head. hmpf! then we finished the experiment, me not helping much. then washed up, me trying to help. then cleared up, and i helped! =D then went back to classrm, poking at the wound. it was sore, painful,and bubbly. so funni. Lit was fine...but theres always this sad atmosphere at our corner then. shinwei had this poem about self-destrction and the class had to do sum presentation. then we said ours, and beat looked sad. she had...someone else who had this similar and terrible experience...and i pity her tons. i feel my life goes too smoothly. nikki Jamie and beat made my feel tt way. others too...=( ? then like after beat was done with talking, i teared again. wah siao lor....< sniff~ today so...weird. > "what if...you really tried to help someone who needs you, and did your best? what if u oso had problems in life and instead of helping you, she makes it worse by interrupting your first sentence and continuing gg on about her oh-so-terrible-life. what if you had something to say, wanted to say, but was not given a chance to? what if you knew you had helped someone at least a little bit, or rather tried to help at all, but was not appreciated? what if you did not mean to want a word of thanks, but just be appreciated you gave your help, but instead no one cared? what if you wanted to confide in someone, but she never gave you a chance and instead blamed you for changing subjects? what if you could not do anything to change her mindset and you feel really bad and unappreciated, what would you do? I really don't wish for much, realli i dun. just your friendship? " |
| where's the light? |
| 04.15.04 (3:15 am) [edit] |
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Today suck quite a lot. geog esp...i m disliking it more...used to like it tho. now i know y seniors keep saying sec2 geog sucks. blanked out during maths and couldn't get any info in my head cos i concentrated on cursing tay. the grids on the graph paper jus seem to be runnin abt and not stopping...and i was confused whether the boy was named peter or john or ali or ahmad. weird~ Tay was esp irritating today...just cares for his image on others too much till its totally annoying. he was so mean. shant elaborate, too lazy and disgusted to. he is just plain mean to nsn. and she looked so...angry after tt. i feel bad? I m starting to get worried. she aint herself these few weeks. her attitude totally changed. not to others, but just to our lil clique. only. just to us...it really bothers me. but maybe i m thinking and worrying too much. maybe i m thinking and worrying for too many unnecessary stuff and ppl. sick of it. too tired. mum commented tt i dun look myself recently. esp this yr. is tt so? just, i feel too many ppl changed this yr. now tts bad. i like the way it was last yr. why cant it stay liddat? aiyahh...if only our class was made up of a certain bunch of 44 ppl. tt wld just be perfect. plain perfect. =) |
| swimming+running+bball stunt competition+bday |
| 04.14.04 (7:34 am) [edit] |
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Before anything, wish Karyn a HAPPIE B-DAY! =D Tuesday- Swimming was nice, i guess? we went to the other part of the swimming complex...but din get to dive the thingy. ohwells. theres still next wk. then we swam abt...15-20 freestyle laps, 5 frogstyle laps, 5 sidestroke laps, 10 backstroke laps. then went to deeper pool and did 12 consecutive laps...any style. =P apparently more frogstyles. yup! it was funn, with christine marion sokyin rochelle and all tt. pearlyn watching us from the sidelines. =) stayed back after tt, then played in the middle pool. went to deep pool and splashed. saw nikki swim few rounds of frogstyle here and there, and she did the underwater dive. i luv tt thing! soo funni when me legs did tt scissors cut above the water. budden sokyin irene marion and her left halfway when the splashing begun...think she was angry. then couldn't find her at first, and christine kept me busy with splashes. splashed her back, and shinwei. then sum ppl came in and they said smth about playing catching in the pool. din realli see who came in but i tink Jo did, so i left. found nikki, knew wad happened, felt bad, apologized, and played again. then nikki swam in and out the mushroom thingy and irene sokyin marion and i stayed sumwhere near it. they talked, i listened 1/4 of it, stared ard, looked at nikki weaving in and out. stood up, shinwei came in while irene marion sokyin left. talked with shin, massaged, talked again, swam ard with lil difficulty in tt too-shallow-to-be-true baby pool, and talked sumore. nikki was still diving in and out, whoa. i impressed how she havent knocked her head against the floor man. then we went to middle pool, found chloe, waved to liying with sum un-recognisable girl beside her, but she din reply. (prob sum fren) =(? yepp then found christine and the rest, and swam about, let down hair. met sadako-nic, and her friendly companion-shin. said hi, felt excited, played sumore! =D so its all about swimming to and fro, diving in and out, tts all for today. Wednesday- boring dae. had 2 tests-lit and geog. arghhh! lit was okay, until tt teacher came in and took photos. i was sure my hair was static...enough for me to grumble all day. geog...map reading was fine. land reclamation part? oh guess what?! the 10b, where we had to identify the example we had from 10a, and describe how we could reclaim it and stuff, i put strip mining instead. THAT DAMAGES THE LAND! how contrdictory...strip mining! for hells sake...but anyway, i put the correct answer below it. wonder if they accept? ahhshoot* watched sum bball stunt competition on ESPN scv in e afternn. sun was too hot...i too sleepy. the thing was sponsored by McDonalds, and they had few rounds of 3-pointers, slam dunks, and sum stuff abt transferring balls to one another. cool huh? then the 3-pointers, the best female had 18 outta 25 balls and male had 21 outta 25. i tink? then the slam dunk was...okayy...the previous years were better, and a first female emerged as champion, SURPRISINGLY. quite surprising lahhs. she got gd scores in her first rounds, then first try in the finals...got 70+ and the next try...she did a dunk with one hand covering her eyes, and another hand slamming ball into net. quite nice. the guy was terrific! the first male...he did this realli cool dunk! budden...his 2nd try failed. moral went down obviously, then 3rd and 4th chances not successful as well. realli disappointing...he can do it one lor! =( but the 2nd guy oso, first 3 trys like shit...*too bad* then his last try, got a ball in. still, obviously he stand no chance of winning. the last guy...he started out with zeros as well, but i tink he got at least one ball in the net. the girl won, but the guy's attempted-slamdunks seemed sooo much nicer! their stunts better...too bad, i really do tink tt the 1st guy should hav done better. |
| Missin' school... |
| 04.08.04 (7:33 am) [edit] |
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Tuesday, 6 April- skipped swimming todae...and felt woozy, uneasy and sick. yupp, theres this something pounding inside my head and my body ached like hell. u know? those synptoms before getting a fever? yup! then swimming seemed fun...but i din get to swim! ohwells. theres still next week. Wednesday, 7 April- first time eva...i actually skipped sch for my entire life(i think)! but its kinda boring without yr friends man. managed to convince my mum to go doc. with me...and doctor gave my a 2-day break. I hav this "Severe virus myralgia" thingy...think its serious headache or smth liddat. ahhwells...I felt all heavy, and my body weight seemed 20 000 tons, and everything's spinnin' i got all dizzy. but nvr stayed in bed, i just did sum stupid maths hw and revision. believe me, not even MTV channels entertain me tt time. geographic channels too. -_- wonder if anyone missed me?? =P I prob get to go back sch tmr. i guess. then nikki called me at 12.30 to ask, and offered to bring me my hw ltr...soo kind! then i heard mdm er at the background, it was CE period, i heard. then at night, me dad and mom brought me to nikki's to get my hw. grateful for tt, nicholyn. Thanks for the hw, the instructions list, and the time and effort. thk-q~! Thursday, 8 April- Ended up not gg sch today again. decided against it at 5+am. then i stayed at home, doing maths qns again, then revised sum science. guess i missed tons at sch huh? sum interesting stuff must hav happened and i missed it! whoa. then today got leader's investiture, i heard from me senior. actually i planned to go sch and see the handbell costume...but cant. sheesh~ but hey, i've got a 5-day break from sch at least! yayy. and i m still ova here sulking tt theres no one missing me! kind ol' shinwei called tho, thanks. mel and nikki too! jamie wldnt admit tt she missed me. uhh...beat...lets skip her. ahh...i think i m fine now. no more giddiness and headaches! peachy. just peachy..yeppz. |
| tears of fustration |
| 04.05.04 (5:55 am) [edit] |
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jus came back from sum barbecue at home, and i stink of smoke right now. oh anyways, had a crappy day back at sch today...crappy monday with crappy teachers full of crappy shit and crappy work plus crappy CCA and crappy lectures included. damn crappy huh? told ya so...! waah~ today cried 2 times. not long, but i feel so lethargic...came back at ard 6-7 feeling all tired and listless, esp after the humiliation during cca. luckily only nicholyn beatrice jamie melissa shimin and charmaine saw me, or else i really dunno wad to do. i dun everyone else to think i m weak or anything. but nvm. who cares? supposed to meet mrs ong for sum stuff during recess, but only i turned up instead of the entire grp 2 -chimers. said smth abt mrs aw (me instructor) who commented on my poor techniques and tt i shld really brush up my skills and be more serious. then they cancelled one of our concert items! wad the...ok, so i messed up big time, but its only me fault and maybe some other chime ppl...but tts all! and the rest dun seem to glad abt "Canon in D/C" being cancelled either...sumore its not really their fault or anything. its me, just me, only me. me and stupidity. if only i was more talented man...den i wldnt hav to drag the grp down with me...stupid lah! i feel so bad...feel so bad for just being me. sumore i only left with one piece in the entire concert. and todays grp 2 practice sucked big big big time! mrs aw indirectly told me and 2 other sec 2s who arent in grp 1 like me, tt we are NOT UP TO STANDARD. and becos of us, the entire grp had to do this same song we've been practicing since jan ova n ova again. damn! i felt soo extra, so left out during grp 1 practice for tt ONE song...so left out cos i dun even belong in grp 1...so extra cos i m not gd enough in grp 1. this sucks. oh darn* fuck myself I suck so much, even i cant stand it |
| moi great grandparents~ |
| 04.04.04 (5:15 am) [edit] |
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woo...went to the great big temple to baiji my grand mother and great grand parents todae...yahh. nth else to blog. now i've seen wad jenn and clara wrote, and yeah i agree. i dun even know why i m blogging now...or last time...or why i started this in the first place. for fun? i dunno. and its not even its one-year-anniversary! |
| bittersweet |
| 04.01.04 (6:34 am) [edit] |
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ohh...I drank so much beer! aha...not too much lah, ok its just 1/3 of a glass bottle of beer. uh-huh. its actually kinda nice! not like those beer in cans which are soo bitter? yupp... got back chi common test! finally. then like, I hope to get back the maths test by tmr or monday...Tay marks fast. =P just hope i dun do too badly...at least I aint like yingting...lolz. she veh funni lahs. keep thinking teachers wanna trick her so she calculated the father son n daughhters age till she got only 15 years old for the father. omg lor...underage marriage issit? he go jail already lah...wheregot father 15 yrs old one? maybe in real life yes, but this is a logical maths qn! aiyoh. god bless her man, hahas... |
| April Fools |
| 04.01.04 (12:05 am) [edit] |
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woohoooo! todae NO handbell! HIP HIP HURRAY! not tt i hate it tt much...but yeah! I got this thursday off! =D April fools was quite ok...got tricked by christine and beat tho. both veri traditional stupid old jokes. ugh* hmpf! Then our class attempted to trick Tay. Dun tink if succeeded much other than making him more sure tt we are a siao buncha peeps. ohwells. tts true anyways...then instead, he turned the tables and tricked US. oof* he made us point towards our head and say "T" then "M" over and over again. if u say for sum time...u wld realise its "MT"= "Emp-ty". still dun get it? means tt u are confessing yr stupidity to the rest of the world by pointing to yr head and saying its empty. gr. then we sang "Ten green bottles" in home ec lesson. its fun! then mel and i sang something like " No green bottles hanging on the wall no green bottles hanging on the wall and if one green bottle shall climbbb up the wallll........there'll be 1 green bottle hanging on the wall" lolz so lame. but its fun...then she changed it further to this green bottle sitting on the floor. dunno wad lah... then the rest of the day, i was too bz sniffling and sneezing my nose off. I represent tt stupid christmas reindeer with tt idiotic red nose man. Rudolph again! hahaz...then felt so lethargic after tt. yeahh. I am starting to fall in love with Fushigi Yuugi once again, like what i did 6 years ago...=) Miaka. Tamahome. Yui. Suboshi. Chichiri. Nuriko. Hotohori. Tasuki. Amiboshi. and theres somemore of cos...=) |
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